Airam.18

Copila mea cu chip de floare ,

Azi îți voi da o sărutăre,

Sa ai si mâine chip de floare ,

Sa crești apoi un om mai mare ,

De-ai fi soare,

De-ai fi vânt,

Tu imi vei fi mereu in gând, 

Aici ,acum ,mereu iti spun,

Tu imi esti soare ,

Tu imi esti vant ,

Tu imi esti cel mai frumos cuvânt,

Un dulce si duios gând 

Copila mea cu chip de floare, 

Azi iti voi da o sarutare ,

Voi fi întâiul tău sarut

O lume mica ,cu ,,tu" si-atât

O floare cu un chip de înger, 

A mea copila, din al meu sange 

Te-am iubit încă din vise ,

Pe vremea când eram o copilita

De-o fi vant ,

De-o fi ninsoare,

Tu imi vei fi mereu ,

Cel mai frumos soare,

De-ai fi o stea ca sa lucesti ,

Ca-ntrun ocean ,ai sa-nfloresti,

Pe cer ,de o sa strălucești,

Ca-ntre petale o sa trăiești. 

Să mă doară ,cui îi pasă

Dorul este doar al meu.

Vreau să sufăr ,vreau în pace 

Să-l iubesc numai pe el 

Esti lichiorul meu de seară,

Mă învăluie al tău amor.

Si când soarele apare ,

Pleci cu sticlă,pleci cu tot 

Mă trezesc nedumerită,

Parcă îmi zâmbeai ,și-acum ,

O nouă zi ,din nou ispita 

De-a vedea ,cum mă ignori 

Cand de mine te apropiai,

sufletul eu mi-l oftam,

În ai tăi ochi verzi priveam,

iar dorința ți-am văzut-o;

Mâna după tine am dus-o,

şi cealaltă pe obraz,

Iar în exces de extaz,

buzele moi le apropiam;

Şi nici măcar nu banuiam,

că imoralul se-ntâmpla…

Încerc să-mi strâng gândurile

Să nu-mi mai răscolească amintirile

Și gândurile mele se sting rănite

Căci de-o viață-s împresurate de regrete

Căci doar o umbră-i viața mea

Pe lîngă fericirile, pierdute cândva

Îmi pun capul frânt pe pernă

Și mă trezesc într-un deșert pustiu

De departe zăresc, o altă persoană

Înapoia sa cresc flori perpetuu

Avea mâinile grav rănite

Și coasta sa era stăpunsă

Îmbrăcat în haină împărătească

Citeam pe chipul său bunătate

Acum aud râuri și cascade

Glasuri de păsări și de animale

Iar lângă mine, o junglă șade

Cu mii de arome ce îmi inundă nările

Dacă iei cuvinte toate, din poeme

Sunt prea palide, sărace să exprime

Cât de mult te iubesc pe tine

O dragoste ce nicicând nu apune

Ce întrece a oceanelor adâncime

Deschide ușs, să vin la tine

Că ci tot bat, bat de-o veșnicie

Ai putea înțelege tu harul ?

E iubirea sa de neconceput

Hristos a băut tot paharul

S-o putem lua noi de la-nceput

Mereu mă copleșește dragostea Domnului!

Nici zidul gros al păcatului

Nu ne poate despărții de ea

Te laud, căci nemărginită-i îndurarea ta

M-am prăbușit la piciorul lui

Grăbindu-mă să îmi cer iertare

Lacrimi scumpe răsăreau din ochii

Căci păcătuisem fără-ncetare

Fără prezența ta Doamne

Mi se topesc oasele de dor

Inima îmi crapă de durere

Mă descarc și nu am încărcător

Fără iubirea ta Doamne

M-aș ofili încet ca o floare

Tăiată și pusă la soare

Ajung să-mi pierd ultima culoare

Și îmi îngheața apa-n vene

Până când sufletul meu moare.

Nu te mai pot vedea,nu te mai pot auzi..Tot, trecutul a rămas acum sub eterna umbră a liniștii. Recunosc, îmi e dor să îți simt atingerea, să îți văd privirea,sa fi langa mine și să îmi zici că totul va fi bine. Acum,toate amintirile sunt îngropate în umbra trecutului și a unui mister nesfârșit.. La infinit ,eu te aștept,sa vii și să îmi luminezi din nou, viața cea neagră și pustie.. Inima mea ,acum a rămas un ghețar rece ce tinde spre pașii tăi,spre tine ... Mereu ,mă întreb...Oare între noi va mai fi vreodată ceva ?... Sau totul va rămâne în negura pustie a trecutului .. Sufletul meu , încă e în cioburi.. Nu a fost vindecat niciodată de a ta privire,de a ta atingere.. Are momente când vrea sa te simtă,dar știe ,că numai poate ,știe că greșește,dacă te aduce înapoi,dar simte că ești pentru el.. Și simte ,simte într-una.. Nimic,nu îl poate vindeca.. Nimeni ,nu poate lua locul sufletului tău din inima mea. Mulți au încercat să treacă barierele mele,dar doar tu ai reușit, amintire eternă,sa îmi pătrunzi în a sufletului taină .

O gazda cu un zambet fals,

Un suflet rece si meschin,

Mi-au dost chiar tot,dar ce-ai ramas?

Un pahar apart si-un strop de vin...

Pasesti spre mine, îmi zambesti,

Si-ti porti intentia pe tava,

Stiam ca nu ma mai iubesti,

Si ca ai pus in vin otrava.

Se fărâmă nori în bucăți mici,

cad încet, pe pământ...

Picături de ploaie...

Noi dansăm în ritm de vals,

strecurându-ne printre stelele mărunte

ce alunecă spre noi...

Dar noi...

Tineri- 

Cu imperfecțiuni 

perfect normale-

am învățat să iubim,

să fim unul

într-o poveste

care abia începe!

As from work I came back home,

And stood in front of my door,

I noticed a small envelope on the floor,

It was about an event, not here in Rome.

It was an invitation to a dance,

A waltz in San Marino, in the three towers.

It said, to arrive between the nights hours, with flowers,

And not to leave your apperance to chance, make sure to bring your best glance.

The envelope had such a powerful smell,

As to read I begin, it made my head spin.

At the same time, it was slowly pulling me in,

It was as if I was under a sort of spell.

Inside, a letter with a small kiss at the end,

It was stamped with a single name,  Dery.

Both in a red so dark-it's origin I couldn't comprehend…

It wasn't the juice of any berry but maybe, a black cherry?

The day of the party grew nearer,

And things started to become clearer.

It must have been some sort of elaborate trick,

This was probably how someone got their kick.

I wanted to look up the party online,

But I couldn't find anything that to the date would align.

Intrigue was taking over me and with myself, I could agree,

That I needed to go and what this was about, to see.

I decided to wear my best, navy blue with the black hue,

I was happy with my decision when I saw who,

Was going to attend and how much they were able to spend.

The richest men and women from their cars would descend.

Some of the wealthiest people of the world gathered,

For an event I didn't even know about, let alone how much it actually mattered.

It seemed like the biggest thing of the year,

But it would appear, that online no one knew what was going on here.

The music was blaring all around the yard,

Although there was no sight of any sort of guard.

We were all asked inside the ball-room,

I was wondering how Dery our night would try to illume.

Suddenly, a thunder sounded like it cracked the sky.

I had a feeling that something dark was nigh.

As if it was so close that I could hear,

Whispering in my ear, to it drawing me near.

I stopped and went away from the crowd,

In the mirror I saw something, to myself I thought,

I looked and looked but around me was naught.

I continued and to myself that by nothing I will be scared I avowed.

The room was massive, it even had a mezzanine floor,

We were all invited to drinks and the party started to roar.

The wine was exquisite, it had clearly been aged for a while,

And as the music changed, our host came down the stairs with a slight smile.

My jaw dropped when I saw who in front of us stopped,

The person who came down the stairs,

Looked like out of a movie she had been cropped.

She declared the party open, requesting us to stop from our affairs and form pairs.

As I was the only alone one,

I really stuck out as the sore thumb,

When by her eyes I was found, I wanted to run,

But she beckoned me and my legs felt numb.

The sound of her stilettos drowned out the ceaseless dance,

As she spun around the crowd, as if she was in a shroud, of mist.

But before I could understand my circumstance,

She took me by the wrist and made us twist.

She was dazzling to all who laid eyes upon her,

Wearing a long red dress but not leaving much for me to guess.

The way her olive skin, brown eyes and freckled cheeks her beauty would confer was leaving my mind in an endless blur,

Barely able to convalesce, with haste I grabbed her hand and waist, trying to impress.

She gave me her first smile of the night,

With a deep look into the eyes,

I didn't stop to think of what that implies,

Because at first sight, everything felt just right.

But suddenly, I had the strangest feeling,

My instinct told me that I had seen her before,

It was as if something from me she was concealing.

She reminded me of someone I used to adore, the way she moved, the things she wore…

She had the gentleness of a red aster,

And as the crescendo was quickly approaching,

She on my chest was intentionally encroaching.

Faster, and please hold your partners closer, said the choirmaster.

Step by step, we entered into the limelight,

The only couple who the speed could withstand,

I grabbed her hand, trying to make the last move truly grand,

She understood, held me tight and let me take her to another height.

As we released each other, everyone stood aside,

The cheers of the crowd were like those of a choir,

Now, it was clear, between us, there was a fire.

There was no emotion left to hide, her smile was just as bright as the moon outside.

I was almost exhausted to death,

But she didn't even seem affected,

And after herself she had quickly collected,

With her next breath she whispered a shibboleth.

I knew the dialect but barely remembered the word.

Her lips slowly mumbled the phrase: Hazırlayın!

She could tell that not only I had heard but it's meaning I had inferred.

Not staying, she slowly went up the steps, her message clearly conveying.

Two servants quickly rushed behind her,

Before one came to tell me,

"Our mistress at the top wishes to see thee.

" Please make your way to the stairs, sir."

It hit me, as I entered the room at the top of the tower,

Everything smelled of orris, more expensive than anything aurous.

And on the bed, a tag attached to a small but gorgeous red flower,

As a chorus, we both read "Scadoxus multiflorus."

" Maybe you know what type it is? What it's called I mean. "

Her voice seemed to come out of no-where,

' I could swear there was no one there'.

" On the name your ideas have to convene, it'll make sense of everything you've seen."

I tried, I wanted to scream, to yell, to shout,

But she grabbed me before my mouth I could move,

" Shush now, you've got nothing more to prove,"

" I am ecstatic you finally figured it out."

I tried to open my mouth but no words would come out,

" I shall allow you to speak but shhhh..not too loud."

" I ask of thee not to offer me any reason your integrity to doubt. "

She snapped her fingers but I said naught aloud, maybe I was just too proud.

" Thou in sooth have nothing to say? Very well, then at least offer me a dance."

I grabbed her hand and waist once more and started slow,

" I don't suppose there's any chance but is this about a romance? "

Her eyes began to glow as we danced to the music below.

" So tell me now, are you a vampire of yore? "

" Thou ought not to name any lady that way, she says as at me she smiles."

" Although yes, from before-Europe Suleiman to conquer swore,"

" Hence I barely escaped the body piles from the Carmonica trials.  "

' So tell me, dear lady what is your name? Dery must surely not be it. '

" Ah, thou hath to notice, thou is only half right."

" Derya is not my birthname, only one my situation to befit. "

" Then, Derya, if to ask I might, what is the flower in our sight? "

" 'Tis here so thou canst avoid the pain…"

' Pain? What are you even talking about? '

" Thou didn't think I brought thee here in vain…"

" Thou are here for a reason, for that there should be no doubt."

" I have examined thou for a very long time, "

" We have met before…a long time back, ten years ago, "

" I wished to help thee grow but life happened and I had to go,"

" Thou were twenty five then, in your prime. "

" You mean…Aysel? Is that really you?"

" You just left me, without any warning…"

" I woke up that day and you were gone by the morning…"

" Why? I still have no clue…that was 5 years of us that you just threw…"

" Thou were too young my motives to comprehended.  "

" Thou were afraid of thine future, of us becoming more,"

'Did you ever try your mistake to amend? I thought my search will never end… '

' How is that fair to me? My heart it tore, it hurt me to my core.'

"I was frightened that eternity with me you wouldn't want to spend… "

"But I hath given this much consideration."

"Thus I am offering you a choice, how to live thy live and its duration,"

"Drink from the tea on that table and your mortal life will end."

"From the sun you will have to hide and the hunters that will constantly be a thorn in your side,"

"Thy life will be one of knowledge and power,"

"But with misery and despair the Earth you'll scour."

"Doth not worry, thou will have a bride who through this life will guide."

"Thou may take thy leave now although we shall never meet again,"

"Our love you'll have to finally forfeit and forget."

'And yet, how long has it been since someone like me you've met?'

"To my disdain, beloved, centuries have passed in vain."

So now, your decision please make

----

Drink the tea

As our bodies unclasp from each others warm embrace,

I didn't want to lose the pace as I bring the tea to my face,

She grabs my neck and whispers in my ear.

"I love you"…I said 'I love you too' with no fear…

----

Leave

As our bodies unclasp from each others warm embrace,

I saw the sadness in her face as I made to leave that place,

With a smile I weaved through the crowd, the dance…

…Knowing it wouldn't be by chance...that my life to something better would advance.

Bate firul de lumină

Ușurel la mine-n geam

Mă trezește și mă cheamă

Să-mi arate sus în deal

Covorașul de petale

Ale florilor de măr

Unduind  pe iarba verde,

Nu departe de pritvor.

Timorat mă atinge vântul

Călător însingurat

Șoptind vorbe de iubire

Mesage din sat în sat.

De ce a trebuit să trecem prin toate?

Am crezut că am întânlit iubirea ...

Înte noi, erau toate bune și frumoase,

Eu chiar te-am plăcut de la început,

Îmi părea ziua norocoasă 

Mă bucuram, că te-am cunoscut,

Mă-ai încredințat, că ești persoana care

Îmi poate fi pereche ce-o caut

Ți-am încredințat inima mea 

Ca tu să ai grijă de mine și de ea

Dar, ai fost în stare, să joci -teatru- atâta vreme 

Ai plecat, fără o vorbă un cuvânt,

Nu am să mor, că n-ai părăsit 

Regret, că drumul l-am rătăcit.

Un farmec în apus de noapte,

Sclipește amplu-n a ta pleoapă

Și amețit de moarte șoapte,

Un sentiment uitat dezgroapă.

O clipă-n care luna plină,

Se stinge într-un ritm generic,

Ca omorât de nicotină,

Să te sărut în întuneric.

Captiv în vis de realitate,

Iar urmăresc al tău atu:

Vreau să cuprind tot universul,

Căci universul meu ești tu.

Un farmec în apus de noapte,

Te face să îți pierzi privirea,

Inconștientă iar de fapte,

Te amețește-ncet iubirea.

Ne pierdem în săruturi ample,

Udați de-a cerurilor apă,

Căci noi suntem cuprinși acuma

De sentimentul ce dezgroapă.

Te-am iubit de nu mai pot,

După atât amar de timp

Si-mi este foarte tare frig

Că după tine, usa sa o închid, nu pot

Te-am iubit de nu mai pot

Ca mai apoi, sa vrei mai mult

"Iubita mea, ti-as da de-al lumii tot,

Dar Dumnezeu, eu nu-s, sunt un biet om"

Blestemat sa te iubesc

Sau binecuvantat ca te-am avut?

Niciodată nu am sa deslusesc

Acest sumbru mister profund.

Nu știu cine a încurcat lucrurile mai mult,

Însă știu cine a iubit mai profund

Căci din suferință, se naște dragostea,

Un lucru foarte scump, ce nu costă nimic.....