În noapte

Intr-o pădure falnică eram,
Se simțea miros de toamnă
Vântul frunze-aduna,  cânta funerar
Se strangea rugină-n coroană

Pe acolo de-o  viață mergeam,
Așteptam cineva să mă întâmpine
Mergeam pe drumul de plumb și viclean
Și am ajuns la răspântie

În două nu mă puteam despica.
Știam că de aici, nu-i drum înapoi.
Știam că miracole nu se vor întâmplă
Și astfel am ales să merg la război.

Uneori ma gandesc unde am mers
Cu fierul pe unghii, lutul in spate și stelele nalte
Dar totuși am ales ce am aleș
Și astfel, s-au decis și celelalte.

Stii, uneori simt ca-s blocat
De parca m-am ratacit undeva
M-as pune-n tribunal si m-as judeca
Dar mi se pare prea complicat

Cineva m-a creat in ocean,
Cu slove vesnice si har infinit
Poate era beat sau se uita pe geam
Cand am fost cugetat la un hotar ratacit

Si acum ne simtim un neam
Nascuti eronat, intr-un secol cersit
Cu o putere geroasa in steag
Pe globul corect, in fragmentul gresit

Dar, cine oi fi eu ca sa atac
Vesnicia intreaga, in umilinta serii.
Unui simplu muritor nu i s-a fi dat
Sa inteleaga, completitudinea ideii.

Lasa-ma sa cad in vremuri
Să te găsesc ca pe-un proroc
Și să-mi prezici în sferturi
O dragoste din flori de busuioc

Să îmi prezici cuvant de zei
Să ma alinți ca în povești
Și purtând miros de tei
Să îmi spui că mă iubești

Sa-mi cânți o notă-n dungi
Si eu sa iti asculta cantarea
Uitandu-ma in ochii tai profunzi
Pe care ii geloasă marea

Afara-i resemnare și blestem.

In alfabetul morse,

Picaturile-mi șoptesc refren

Cat eu ascult gospel și încerc mă rimez in strofe

Afară plouă cenușiu, asuprind năpasta

Ingerii decepționați ne plâng.

Nimburile sunt proiectate-n târg

Iar martirii inocent, își zăbovesc răsplata

Frecvențe corosive răsună în perete

Tu copiliță mare, plângi ca din cișmea,

Și nu poti intelege ca dulapul, mi-e plin doar de schelete

Pe care tu, nu le poti vedea

Mă tem ca vazand medaliile pe col, nu ai intelege

Ce-am purtat intregul drum in pungi

Și de ce sunt blestemat de linii negre

Ca baiatul cu pijamale in dungi

Evident ca in final sunt vinovat doar eu

Asta-i ultima fantă in ghețar

De-ai ști cat de mult imi pare rau

Ca nu există un buton pentru restart

Presimt magie și mister
Ai fi vre-un manuscris ocult?
Poate te-ai nascut din ser
Și vreai doar să te ascult?

Poate că ești un codice secret,
Și vreai să îmi prezici în zodii;
Dar eu fiind pregnant poet
Nu inteleg - graiul astronomic.

Răsfoiesc iar în eșec foaia de titlu
Aspirându-ți pasul ezoteric,
Dar nu prea reușesc să mențin ritmul
Călcând pe paragraful sferic...

Vreau să te citesc în șoaptă
Zugrăvindu-te-n particule
Iar oprindu-mă, la miez de noapte
Să-ti las lasoul pe clavicule

Aș vrea, să-ți văd secretele
Și funerar să le zidesc;
Am invatat toate alfabetele,
Dar tot nu pot să te citesc...

Daca ai fi-n povesti, ai fi craiasa

Si intregul univers ti s-ar alina in ochi

Sa stii ca un Luceafar te admira din fereastra, 

Lumina lui, relevandu-te cat dormi.

Mirosul tau, ma lasa sa traiesc

Faptura ta, culeasa din bobi de soare

Mangaie spiritul ceresc,

Mangaie o infinitate intreaga.

Si cand te intorci cu spatele la geam

Nemurirea unui inger se termina,

Tot ce-i luat din plai si guri de rai

Luna, stele - toate plang, cu lacrimi de rugina.

Cerul, infinit de plin, in pauza - 

S-a ferecat letal

Intr-o tacere de suspin, si-acum reteaza

Ca o zgaraietura in metal

Si o gratie argintie se dizolva in contrast

Cu melodia corosiva, ce o rasuna hornul

Dar acel inger dornic, inca sta la al tau cap

Si resemnat iti tot vegheaza somnul.

Am vrut să ating cerul ,

Dar  rădăcinile m-au prins 

Și m-au legat strâns.

Am vrut să prind lumina

Într-o clepsidră

Dar s-a risipit

Am vrut să spulber durerea

Dar am văzut un chip cioplit 

Și  mi-a frânt aripa.

Ce fericit mă simt când spui

Că sunt așa cum m-ai visat,

Și mulțumesc Celui de Sus

Că jumătatea bună mi-a lăsat

Tu ai venit cândva spre mine

Iar eu m-am pus în calea ta,

Și de aici a început povestea

Pe care nicicând n-o poți uita

Era pe timp frumos de toamnă

Când amândoi ne-am întâlnit,

Și am simțit cum cordu-mi bate

Cu puls mărit de om îndrăgostit

Dar cum să-i spui ce te frământă

Cuiva ce nici măcar nu te cunoaște,

Așa că doar am aruncat un zâmbet

Sperând că-n viitor ceva se naște

Și mult nu a durat s-o văd din nou

Pe bancă la căminul studențesc,

Când lângă ea ușor m-am așezat

Și tupeist i-am spus ce îmi doresc

Speranțe nu mi-a dat prea multe

Pentru-a ieși cu mine la plimbare,

Dar a cerut un mic timp de gândire

Răspuns, ce l-am citit..ca aprobare

Și nu m-am înșelat că am aflat

Că cererea mi-a fost acceptată,

Și de atunci am rămas împreună

C-așa a hotărât a noastră soartă

Eram atât de tineri și visători

În astă lume plină de păcat,

Cu greu, ușor am trecut anii

Iar pe dușmani noi i-am iertat

Și timpul a trecut peste noi doi

Făr' a ne spune că îmbătrânim,

Dar cine se mai uită-n buletin

Când zi de zi mai mult.. noi ne iubim!

As from work I came back home,

And stood in front of my door,

I noticed a small envelope on the floor,

It was about an event, not here in Rome.

It was an invitation to a dance,

A waltz in San Marino, in the three towers.

It said, to arrive between the nights hours, with flowers,

And not to leave your apperance to chance, make sure to bring your best glance.

The envelope had such a powerful smell,

As to read I begin, it made my head spin.

At the same time, it was slowly pulling me in,

It was as if I was under a sort of spell.

Inside, a letter with a small kiss at the end,

It was stamped with a single name,  Dery.

Both in a red so dark-it's origin I couldn't comprehend…

It wasn't the juice of any berry but maybe, a black cherry?

The day of the party grew nearer,

And things started to become clearer.

It must have been some sort of elaborate trick,

This was probably how someone got their kick.

I wanted to look up the party online,

But I couldn't find anything that to the date would align.

Intrigue was taking over me and with myself, I could agree,

That I needed to go and what this was about, to see.

I decided to wear my best, navy blue with the black hue,

I was happy with my decision when I saw who,

Was going to attend and how much they were able to spend.

The richest men and women from their cars would descend.

Some of the wealthiest people of the world gathered,

For an event I didn't even know about, let alone how much it actually mattered.

It seemed like the biggest thing of the year,

But it would appear, that online no one knew what was going on here.

The music was blaring all around the yard,

Although there was no sight of any sort of guard.

We were all asked inside the ball-room,

I was wondering how Dery our night would try to illume.

Suddenly, a thunder sounded like it cracked the sky.

I had a feeling that something dark was nigh.

As if it was so close that I could hear,

Whispering in my ear, to it drawing me near.

I stopped and went away from the crowd,

In the mirror I saw something, to myself I thought,

I looked and looked but around me was naught.

I continued and to myself that by nothing I will be scared I avowed.

The room was massive, it even had a mezzanine floor,

We were all invited to drinks and the party started to roar.

The wine was exquisite, it had clearly been aged for a while,

And as the music changed, our host came down the stairs with a slight smile.

My jaw dropped when I saw who in front of us stopped,

The person who came down the stairs,

Looked like out of a movie she had been cropped.

She declared the party open, requesting us to stop from our affairs and form pairs.

As I was the only alone one,

I really stuck out as the sore thumb,

When by her eyes I was found, I wanted to run,

But she beckoned me and my legs felt numb.

The sound of her stilettos drowned out the ceaseless dance,

As she spun around the crowd, as if she was in a shroud, of mist.

But before I could understand my circumstance,

She took me by the wrist and made us twist.

She was dazzling to all who laid eyes upon her,

Wearing a long red dress but not leaving much for me to guess.

The way her olive skin, brown eyes and freckled cheeks her beauty would confer was leaving my mind in an endless blur,

Barely able to convalesce, with haste I grabbed her hand and waist, trying to impress.

She gave me her first smile of the night,

With a deep look into the eyes,

I didn't stop to think of what that implies,

Because at first sight, everything felt just right.

But suddenly, I had the strangest feeling,

My instinct told me that I had seen her before,

It was as if something from me she was concealing.

She reminded me of someone I used to adore, the way she moved, the things she wore…

She had the gentleness of a red aster,

And as the crescendo was quickly approaching,

She on my chest was intentionally encroaching.

Faster, and please hold your partners closer, said the choirmaster.

Step by step, we entered into the limelight,

The only couple who the speed could withstand,

I grabbed her hand, trying to make the last move truly grand,

She understood, held me tight and let me take her to another height.

As we released each other, everyone stood aside,

The cheers of the crowd were like those of a choir,

Now, it was clear, between us, there was a fire.

There was no emotion left to hide, her smile was just as bright as the moon outside.

I was almost exhausted to death,

But she didn't even seem affected,

And after herself she had quickly collected,

With her next breath she whispered a shibboleth.

I knew the dialect but barely remembered the word.

Her lips slowly mumbled the phrase: Hazırlayın!

She could tell that not only I had heard but it's meaning I had inferred.

Not staying, she slowly went up the steps, her message clearly conveying.

Two servants quickly rushed behind her,

Before one came to tell me,

"Our mistress at the top wishes to see thee.

" Please make your way to the stairs, sir."

It hit me, as I entered the room at the top of the tower,

Everything smelled of orris, more expensive than anything aurous.

And on the bed, a tag attached to a small but gorgeous red flower,

As a chorus, we both read "Scadoxus multiflorus."

" Maybe you know what type it is? What it's called I mean. "

Her voice seemed to come out of no-where,

' I could swear there was no one there'.

" On the name your ideas have to convene, it'll make sense of everything you've seen."

I tried, I wanted to scream, to yell, to shout,

But she grabbed me before my mouth I could move,

" Shush now, you've got nothing more to prove,"

" I am ecstatic you finally figured it out."

I tried to open my mouth but no words would come out,

" I shall allow you to speak but shhhh..not too loud."

" I ask of thee not to offer me any reason your integrity to doubt. "

She snapped her fingers but I said naught aloud, maybe I was just too proud.

" Thou in sooth have nothing to say? Very well, then at least offer me a dance."

I grabbed her hand and waist once more and started slow,

" I don't suppose there's any chance but is this about a romance? "

Her eyes began to glow as we danced to the music below.

" So tell me now, are you a vampire of yore? "

" Thou ought not to name any lady that way, she says as at me she smiles."

" Although yes, from before-Europe Suleiman to conquer swore,"

" Hence I barely escaped the body piles from the Carmonica trials.  "

' So tell me, dear lady what is your name? Dery must surely not be it. '

" Ah, thou hath to notice, thou is only half right."

" Derya is not my birthname, only one my situation to befit. "

" Then, Derya, if to ask I might, what is the flower in our sight? "

" 'Tis here so thou canst avoid the pain…"

' Pain? What are you even talking about? '

" Thou didn't think I brought thee here in vain…"

" Thou are here for a reason, for that there should be no doubt."

" I have examined thou for a very long time, "

" We have met before…a long time back, ten years ago, "

" I wished to help thee grow but life happened and I had to go,"

" Thou were twenty five then, in your prime. "

" You mean…Aysel? Is that really you?"

" You just left me, without any warning…"

" I woke up that day and you were gone by the morning…"

" Why? I still have no clue…that was 5 years of us that you just threw…"

" Thou were too young my motives to comprehended.  "

" Thou were afraid of thine future, of us becoming more,"

'Did you ever try your mistake to amend? I thought my search will never end… '

' How is that fair to me? My heart it tore, it hurt me to my core.'

"I was frightened that eternity with me you wouldn't want to spend… "

"But I hath given this much consideration."

"Thus I am offering you a choice, how to live thy live and its duration,"

"Drink from the tea on that table and your mortal life will end."

"From the sun you will have to hide and the hunters that will constantly be a thorn in your side,"

"Thy life will be one of knowledge and power,"

"But with misery and despair the Earth you'll scour."

"Doth not worry, thou will have a bride who through this life will guide."

"Thou may take thy leave now although we shall never meet again,"

"Our love you'll have to finally forfeit and forget."

'And yet, how long has it been since someone like me you've met?'

"To my disdain, beloved, centuries have passed in vain."

So now, your decision please make

----

Drink the tea

As our bodies unclasp from each others warm embrace,

I didn't want to lose the pace as I bring the tea to my face,

She grabs my neck and whispers in my ear.

"I love you"…I said 'I love you too' with no fear…

----

Leave

As our bodies unclasp from each others warm embrace,

I saw the sadness in her face as I made to leave that place,

With a smile I weaved through the crowd, the dance…

…Knowing it wouldn't be by chance...that my life to something better would advance.

Nu vine timpul sa te uit

Sa te arunc si sa ma uit

La cineva cunoscut

Si totusi strain in sarut.

Imbatata de dragostea ta indiferenta,

Dar si dependenta de independenta,

Insa aleg independenta

Ca nu doare cat dragostea ta.

O piatră de mormânt îmi este gândul,

Din gânduri mi-am alcătuit mormântul,

Din sute de idei mi-am construit giulgiul,

Iar din tristeți mi-am terminat sicriul.

M-am îngropat în răsărit de soare

Când nimeni nu era pe afară,

Doar eu, o mică și neînsemnată vietate,

Îmi răcoream picioarele în moarte.

Am colindat cu umbra spiritului luna,

Am poposit apoi la fiecare stea

Și aș fi vrut să vă opresc pământul,

Căci nimeni nu a plâns la moartea mea.

M-am înfrățit în absolut cu Universul

Să născocim în doi o nouă stea,

În care să nu punem gânduri,

Iar eu să zac pe veci în ea.

*

Mi-am amintit fără să vreau trecutul,

Când ți-am văzut în praf de stele chipul,

Și-n ziua când lucram un colț de stea

Am hotărât să-ți vizitez ținutul.

Dar clipele se transformaseră-n ore

Și zilele se preschimbaseră-n ani,

Iar eu călătorisem mii de ani

Când am ajuns să văd din nou pământul.

De sus, din cerul plin de stele,

Am căutat să-ți văd iar chipul,

Dar fiindcă nu te-am mai găsit,

De întristare, m-am aruncat în mare.

Cum era noi, nimeni nu era,

Lacrimi și râsete, mâini împreunate,

Împreună zâmbeam sub luna grea,

Sufletele noastre, mereu fermecate.

Cum ne iubeam, nimeni nu iubea,

Inimi unite-ntr-o singură bătaie,

Nimic în lume nu ne-ar putea lua,

Ce simțeam atunci, sub bolta cea mai deasă.

Timpul trecea, dar noi rămâneam,

Cu șoapte dulci și priviri adânci,

În taină lumea o îmbrățișam,

Pe drumuri de vise și zări fierbinți.

Noi eram flacăra ce nu se stinge,

Ne aprindeam în orice moment,

Dragostea noastră nimeni nu o atinge,

O poveste eternă, în suflet prezent.

În ochii tăi vedeam tot ce conta,

O lume-n care doar noi doi trăiam,

Cum era noi, nimeni nu visa,

Iubirea noastră, un veșnic vals dansam.

Și chiar de vremuri s-au stins ușor,

Cum era noi, va rămâne mereu,

Două inimi în același fior,

Cum ne iubeam, nimeni n-a mai știut.